Trust

 

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight."
Proverbs 3:5‭-‬6

My mom got moved and settled into rehab.....I was so apprehensive....when we got there her room was not prepared...the transport people made up her bed....they said, "It's not worth it to ask." 😳 Then they quickly said, "Oh, she'll be fine." Staff, what there was, pretty much ignored us. 😳😳😳 I had so many questions but nobody came. 😳😳😳😳 I'm praying, "Lord, please show me this is not what it seems". Finally, I go out to the nurses desk and as I began to ask questions another woman walked up. I began telling them, passionately, what I wanted most for my mom.....the management of her pain. The biggest problem is that the pain is not from the hip repair, which is why she is there, but her foot. I shared with them bit a of who my mom is. It's important for them not to assume she is a patient with dementia. I told them that two short months ago she was cooking and baking banana bread. Her aide decided she would have to stay longer and they'd get her into the kitchen. 😊 We laughed, the ice was broken....awkwardness abated.

Her aide began to do the routine "stuff".....with three masks and a face shield on. When I told her it was okay to remove them she promptly responded, "Oh no I cant." Apprehension reared it's head again. I could barely hear or understand her.....mom never would. 🥺 All the stories you hear come flooding in.....I thought I would vomit right there on the spot.

"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart."
Jeremiah 29:11‭-‬13

She asked if mom needed anything...was she hungry....too warm, too hot....she decided on MacDonald's.....before I left I asked the aid for her TV remote. She went and found one....handed it to me and said, "You'll have to handle this one. I don't watch TV." I joked with her "Never", I said. Then she said this....."Nope! I work two jobs. 7 to 3 and 3 to 11, I go to church and I read my Bible.

"Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him, and he will act."
Psalm 37:5

I followed her out of the room and told her that my mom is not saved. To which she replied, "Everyone is born into sin." I told her I wanted nothing more than for my mom to know the Lord so she should feel free to talk about God all she wanted!! We both chuckled but deep down I felt my heart say, "Thank you Lord for your amazing provision."

I went to McDonald's for our dinner and to the store for some pretty, fresh nighties, returned to enjoy dinner and heartfelt conversation. She agreed to call me (she promised) if anything happened or felt wrong. Our agreed upon goal is that she'll work really hard and we'll get her out of there and hopefully back to a familiar setting. I'm beginning to look at some alternative options for help and care. She is my momma and she deserves the best.

Today I'm going to take Miss P in for a visit. It's a new day, new mercies.

"You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you. Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord God is an everlasting rock."
Isaiah 26:3‭-‬4

Perfect peace.....I'm going to rest there today.

Happy Celebration Sunday!