Trying to distract or take one's mind off of the utter hell they are living would be quite comical if it wasn't so incredibly sad.
Typically I would be enjoying this spectacularly beautiful day opening the pool, laying mulch, perhaps planting flowers, definitely having a family dinner to celebrate Kylie's 2nd birthday.
Instead I tried to spend some time outside, away from home but being gone from home for long sends me right into panic mode....I must return to my comfy chair with my comfy blanket and find some way to distract myself ......today it was a little bit of the food network and some precious sleep that takes me completely out of thought mode, glorious distraction at it's finest.
Nothing is right. This is ALL wrong.
This valley is so deep I am slowly suffocating.
There is no air down here......I can't see God down here, I can't feel his presence.....I long to.....I want to be rescued.......I'm told I'm doing exactly what I need to do but it's sooooooo painful......I want out......but there's no way out. I must go THROUGH the fire. Please friends, continue to lift me and my children up in prayer. We need healing in the most desperate of ways.
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