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May 11, 2021
"Yet Jerusalem says, “The Lord has deserted us; the Lord has forgotten us. “Never! Can a mother forget her nursing child? Can she feel no love for the child she has borne? But even if that were possible, I would not forget you! SEE, I HAVE WRITTEN YOUR NAME ON THE PALMS OF MY HANDS."
Isaiah 49:14-16 NLT
Hearing that scripture in the early morning hours when sleep escaped me calmed my anxious heart. He, my Savior, Redeemer and Friend has MY name written on the palms of his hands. And that is exactly how I will survive this day, THAT day.
Six years....how can it be? Time passes, life moves...yet on this day time stands still. This day seems like a year. Every single second is a memory. Yes, it's a hard day. These are hards days. But God....
"I lift up my eyes to the hills----where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth.
He will not let your foot slip---He who watches over you will not slumber; indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.
The Lord watches over you--the Lord is the shade at your right hand; the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night.
The Lord will keep you from all harm---he watch will watch over your life; the Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forever more." Psalm 121
Such precious words I can cling to that will never fail me.
God, today is hard. Six years out I don't know why this happened and why I lost so much but what I do know is that you are faithful and true. Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path. Because of you, I can face today head on. Because you live I can face tomorrow.
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My grateful journal lays open this morning....but today it's truly tough...Add two years to my post below and the thoughts and feeling are the same. I can't NOT relive these days over and over. Six years later I remember every word of every conversation. I remember everything we did and everywhere we went. It's not even THAT day...for I had one more day....but it's a hard day... tomorrow is a hard day...the days that follow are hard days BUT God #291 ✔️, the lover of my soul #292✔️ has me firmly in his grip #293✔️ what a blessing. I'm surviving! #294✔️ I'm living! #295✔️ I have a purpose! #296✔️ Thanks be to God! #297✔️
Have a beautiful day!
Be the hands and feet of Jesus.
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May 10, 2019
Good morning! It's Friday! Four years ago today I was unknowingly spending the last day of my life with my beloved husband. It was a beautiful, sunny Mother's Day. Since that day I have truly grasped the concept of "wasting away". Not in the sense of not living but in the sense that nothing in this world stays the same. I'm not sure I fully understood it until the one I loved most on this Earth was plucked from my life, just like that. One moment I was kissing him goodbye the next I was saying goodbye forever.
"Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes."
James 4:14
And just like that....he was gone....and the 40 years we had together were but a mist.
When I remember that time four years ago, it's still surreal. The questions are still the same but so is the reality. He is gone and I am still here. His journey was complete and I still have work to do. What my work is I haven't a clue. For the first time I can ever recall I am completely content for God to roll out his plan for my life. His word says so many things that give me courage to allow him to lead. He has plans to prosper me and not to harm me. He has given me new birth into a living hope. He tells me to be patient and stand firm. He tells me not to be afraid for he is with me. He tells me to fix my eyes on what is unseen because what is seen is wasting away. He tells me not to merely listen to his word but to do what it says. He has set eternity in my heart. And from these beautiful words I can have confidence that he will place me right where I need to be and because he knows me better than I know myself it will be perfect. I cannot do that on my own.
This week has been dreadfully difficult. I've had to banish awful thoughts from my mind and replace them with God's promises. It is the only way. I am so very thankful for God's word. It sets me on the right path every single time and gives me the assurance that there IS something beautiful beyond this life.
"He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end."
Ecclesiastes 3:11
God sees my future. I can dream, plan, manipulate even pretend but God KNOWS. My life, my purpose, my destiny was complete before I was born. I can try to delay his plans, I suppose I can say "no, I'm not doing that" or "I don't WANT to do that" but if I believe God's word and I do, his plan cannot be thwarted. And why would I want it to be? I hate pain! I hate trials! But I cannot deny he is with me in the midst of them and that he is growing me despite how incredibly hard they are. He will never leave me nor forsake me and he will walk with me when I can stand and he will carry me when I can't walk.
God, I don't know why I am now a widow. It doesn't matter because no human answer would ever satisfy and mend my broken heart. So I'm going to trust that you know what is best for me even if it's something I would have never wanted, anticipated or chosen. I'm far from laying all at your feet Lord. I am still a work in progress. I still hold too tightly to that which I think I can protect. Help me to open my hands fully...for there is freedom there I know.
Have a beautiful day!
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Good morning! It's Wednesday
Man these days are hard! There I've said it! I feel it! I'm living it! And I'm NOT loving it!
Have you ever had a day that at its end you wish for a do-over? I did yesterday. 🤦🏻♀️
These days leading up to "that day" are just plain difficult. I can't escape them. A veil of deep sadness descends on my body, mind and spirit. I have zero control to shake it off. It just sits there like an unwelcome visitor. And I suspect 10 years from now the same thing will happen. There is no escaping the day that broke me into pieces that can never be put back together.
I am sitting here staring at my grateful journal that for the first time in eleven days sits blank. It's not that yesterday was a total zero. ..it was just so bad that the good seems almost blasphemous to write down. If God placed me in all of those circumstances to "test" my patience and my trust in him, I absolutely failed. Not a single time did I even say, "What are you doing? What are you trying to show me?" And when it was time for bed.... and the tears came...I was so disappointed in myself. Things I said that I shouldn't have...things left unsaid that I should have said. Situations I could have handled much, much better.
Yep, these days are hard.
Sometimes instead of pushing through I wish I could just be still.
"Be still and know that I am God."
But being still, sitting IN it is REALLY hard. Keeping busy is a good thing, right? Not if the keeping busy looked like yesterday.
"Be still and know that I am God."
A command! Do it! As pen hits paper this morning I hear Him. It's quiet. The day is new. How I wish yesterday I would have found some quiet, to hear His voice. I allowed the world in and it was so loud.
I missed reading my devotion yesterday....caught up in all my to-dos...busyness, mind overloaded.... but God...❤️ When I read it this morning it was exactly what I needed to hear in His perfect timing. Yesterday it wouldn't have meant to me what it means this morning because I wasn't listening.
"May your unfailing love be my comfort, according to your promise to your servant. Let your compassion come to me that I may live, for your law is my delight."
Psalm 119:77-76
Oh my heart! A loving, compassionate God was waiting for me to come...
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.
Matthew 11:28:30
So my gratitude journal was slim yesterday. #239 had me peeling hard boiled eggs with a friend, grateful for time with her. #240 my very kind doctor who asked, "Are you dating? You're so vibrant and have so much to offer." #241 caring friends who checked in because they knew I wasn't quite right.
Today, I'm given another day. #242 ✔️ To do God's will. #243 ✔️ To be his disciple. #244 ✔️ To spread his word. #245 ✔️
God, I'm sorry about yesterday. Thank you that I'm forgiven. #246 ✔️Thank you that you see what I can't. #247 ✔️Thank you that when all I see is my circumstances you are working behind the scenes for my good and your glory. #248 ✔️ Today God, in the name of Jesus, my Savior #249 ✔️let my words and actions be pleasing in your sight. Help me to remember that you know these days are hard for me and that you will be my comforter #250 ✔️and that your love is unfailing. #251 May your will be done today according to your purpose. #252
Have a beautiful day!
Be the hands and feet of Jesus.
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