Trust

Trust....I've been thinking a lot about trust lately....my lack of it or my constant wavering between trusting and....well, simply put, NOT trusting.....The dictionary defines trust this way: "assured reliance on the character, ability, strength, or truth of someone or something b : one in which confidence is placed". Clearly, for a Christian, that "someone" is God. Something I realized this past weekend about trust is that there are circumstances where trust is fairly easy and then circumstances you simply cannot find peace through trust. Let me explain.

I took a trip this weekend. A trip that I have wanted to take for five years! My best friend of 40 years moved 5 hours from me after having practically lived next door for over 30 years. I miss her so much and while she comes this way often the only time I have been her way is if I am accompanied by someone else, usually my daughter. Fear has kept me from taking the trip alone. Driving through the mountains, driving in an unexpected rainstorm, car failure, being spotted as a woman driving alone......seriously, you name it, I've thought about it. But this weekend all of those scenarios didn't keep me away. I needed to be with her and she needed to be with me. So I prayed "God, ride with me and keep me safe". Once I got on the rode I was "okay" but cautious. I got about 1/2 way through my trip and realized that it was futile to find something that interested me on the radio so I popped in a christian music CD and I was literally renewed. I was happy! I was singing! I was no longer nervous, not in the least bit. I did have to keep myself from taking both hands off the wheel and extending them toward heaven though. :-) I got there safe and sound and it was wonderful. Kathy and I are two peas in a pod...err....well she is rather proper and I'm a tad naughty....but we are a wonderful blend. We have wonderful conversations and more exciting than anything I could have imagined....we are spiritual equals. We love the Lord! We opened the Word every chance we got and almost all of our conversations came down to talking about God and his plans for our life. We talked about faith, trust, love, grace.......we talked about fear, sorrow, anxiety.......we talked about our children, our grandchildren and our husbands and the state of our marriages (her being married for nearly 33 years and me nearly 31 years, both to men we dated in high school). On some level, I did not want to come home.....I wanted to talk to her for a week! But alas, our time was short and it was time for me to come home. The closer I got to home and the many times I talked to my husband on the way home, made me more and more excited to see him and be thankful for the break but to also carry on. When I came down our street, in our driveway was my daughter's car. I yelled out loud! I was so excited that she had brought the grand kids to see me! My husband had dinner ON MY PLATE ready for me to come in and sit down. Gotta love the accuracy of the GPS! I was greeted with hugs and kisses from Mandy, Laney and Bill and some snuggles from little Gavin.

What I learned.......I really CAN trust. I took God with me on that trip and he never left me. So I CAN trust! Yippee! I CAN TRUST! Now, just to work on trusting in EVERY situation. EVERY SITUATION!! Little by little God is growing me up! I'm rising to the challenge and he IS growing me up! Praise God!

Have a GOD day!!
XOXO