Is it Day 40 yet? I'm struggling! I feel out of touch! It's that feeling that something isn't quite right but you're not exactly sure what it is.....UGH....Perhaps it's FOMO (fear of missing out)....Whatever it is it's HARD. The very fact that I'm struggling shows me that too much importance has been placed on that which I seemingly can't live without.
I find it really bizarre that I would "mourn" such a thing as social media connection. The self talk is laughable but isn't it when you want something so badly? My self-justification in asking myself why I wasted so much time scrolling would be admirable and accurate.....if any of it was true.....at all......
- It's probably just Winter....
- It's so gloomy, so cold.....What else is there to do?
- I'm just trying to keep up with my friends and family
- Is it REALLY hurting anyone?
This is simply WRONG thinking! Trying to justify my actions is WRONG! Trying to talk my way out of clear instruction is WRONG!
Is God going to continue to show me amazing things from his Word? Of course he will if I am willing! Will I continue to use my freed up time to drive me to the Word for wisdom? I pray it will be so."The beginning of wisdom is this: Get wisdom. Though it cost all you have, get understanding" Proverbs 4:7
COST ALL YOU HAVE??? WOW!
ALL - The whole of one's energy or interest.
Isn't it interesting that if you go to the Word of God He WILL show you exactly what you need to hear?
"The one who gets wisdom loves life; the one who cherishes understanding will soon prosper." Proverbs 19:8
Prosper - “to help on the road” or “succeed in reaching.”
"But the wisdom from above is first of all pure. It is also peace loving, gentle at all times, and willing to yield to others. It is full of mercy and the fruit of good deeds. It shows no favoritism and is always sincere." James 3:17
Oh I LOVE THIS!! Why would I NOT want to FILL myself with the Word of God? Wisdom that comes from heaven is PURE (without flaw), WILLING TO YIELD (not stubborn and obstinate) and full of GOOD FRUIT (the outward deeds of the inward working of the Spirit).
"No discipline seems pleasant at the time, put painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it." Hebrews 12:11
And just like that from the beginning of typing my thoughts full of frustration and sadness.... to the end....seeking God's guidance & discipline, I am restored to right thinking. He NEVER disappoints IF I can separate myself from selfish desires to actually be able to HEAR what it is he is trying to say.
God, I hear what you're saying. I confess I fail often with wrong thinking and blurred vision. I am sorry Lord. Thank you for your Word. Thank you for your patient guidance. Thank you for restoration. Thank you for ears to hear and eyes to see. Help me to continue to remember that you waste nothing. You never said it would be easy, you actually said it will be painful, but you promise that your power will be made perfect in my weakness. Help me to continue to be drawn to your Word. Amen
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